I'll Let U Be..

I let u mess around with me
I let u have it ur way.
I let u hurt me so easy,
I let u, just let u get away.

I think i've learnt my lesson;
at least I like to think so.
I've been trying so hard for so long,
still haven't learnt how to say NO.

I let u run, let u play,
break the glass on window.
I let u rain, let u shine,
let u drag me, walking shadow.

I let u jump, let u bleed,
let u come running, u had to cry.
I let u smile, let u hide,
let u ignore me standing by.

Not any more; no, not any more.
I won't be around,
I won't open the door,
No, not any more.

I'll let u fail, let u forget.
I'll let u frown & let u wait.
I'll let u turn your eyes away from me;
My anguish, kick hard; I'll just let u be.

MATURITY

Maturity does not necessarily mean understanding. Maturity means acceptance. Not think, but KNOW the nature of existence. Not hope but appreciate that nothing, NOTHING that happens to you is ever personal. Maturity means identifying with how insignificant yet relevant your actions could and should be. It means identifying your own ground to stand without support. It means to judge yourself, not in eyes of others, but in your own.
But its not a thing that will necessarily lead you to peace of mind.

Ramblings... Blah Blah Blah...

Falling in Love is the most sensible selfish act and yet maximally & miserably misunderstood as selfless.
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Wanting people to listen, you can't tap them on shoulder anymore. You got to hit them wit a sledgehamer & then you will notice you have got their complete attention.
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GOD gave us an apple and he said don't touch it.
He didn't say touch it once in a while;
He didn't say nibble on it if you get hungry;
He said DON'T FUCKIN TOUCH IT.
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I think sarcasm is well past female understanding. Or maybe since female existance itself is the most sarcastic thing, any other wordly or behavioral sarcastic act in front of them is kind of meaningless.
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You don't put a loaded gun on the stage unless you intend one of the characters to kill. Because otherwise you are stupid.
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Everyone should have atleast one place where he is not alowed to go.
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YOU

Biting lips, eyes wide open, face veiled behind curls..
There you stand, with hope in every breath..
Those eyes.. you can’t fool everyone with the normal look.
Those fingers, steady they may seem, but ya ;
Someone knows they are dying to be held..
Was it you whispering, asking me to come,
Or I just saw you once more, as you are, without pretences..
Do you live the lie of happiness willingly?
Or that’s what you have been tought?
To Live, because you have to,
To Lie, for truth is unbearable…
You wake up every morning with smile on your face,
More assuring than morning sunshine..
But you can’t deceive me. Your bed tells the whole night’s story..
No I don’t want to pity you; I wouldn’t know how to do that.
No I can’t Love you, I can’t rise so fast…
But I see you, as you are; unlike others…
and I agree that your road is lonely & I can’t be your partner…
But I’ll tell you a little secret,
about the door you didn’t know existed.
Which will bring you right besides me..
you may come, you may not… Hell; doors don’t anticipate…

I can not be your redemption,
But I’ll remind you of salvation within.